It’s been nearly a year since I have sat here and started one of these. A old dear friend of mine text me the other night asking why I quit blogging. My reply was easy. “I GOT CAUGHT UP IN LIFE!” I’m (my daughter) is busy. I work two jobs sometimes three jobs to keep a roof over my head. My BRAND SPANKING NEW roof might I add. One of two of my proudest accomplishments. I’m dirt poor now, but it’s worth it.
Where do I even begin when so much life has happened?
I guess I will start with the basics. 1. I built a home. It’s a dream come true! Emery gets to grow up on the same street I grew up on and that to me is pretty amazing. I can only hope and pray she doesn’t get into a paint war with her BFF down our freshly paved asphalt like me and mine did. I’m pretty sure we got grounded, and if not we definitely got the fear of God put into us from my mom. Isn’t that right, Kristen? Good times. 2. Emery joined a competitive cheer team. In the most humble way possible, WE ARE THE BEST! Those girls are AMAZING! We have several grand championship titles to prove it. Being a cheer mom is awesome! I grew up cheering, and now to be able to watch my daughter be so talented in a sport, YES, SPORT, we both love is so gratifying. It has allowed special bonding time with one another, and I wouldn’t take back the memories, money or time spent for anything. I can only hope she will want to continue down this cheer path for years to come, but I know whatever she chooses to do she will excel beyond expectations. I still can’t believe God chose me to be her mom. I couldn’t have prayed for a better more perfect child. But yes I sometimes do pray that her videos on loud don’t bring out the insanity in me. 3. All my best friends are getting married, having babies, building houses, moving up in careers and I couldn’t be more proud of them. As you grow older and wiser and free time becomes more scarce, your circle becomes smaller. Where I’m at in life, my money priorities are #1. True friends understand this and support you. I appreciate a cheap glass of wine on my couch with my girls gossiping and watch YouTube videos more than I ever thought I could. When days get hard, I am reminded how lucky I am to have such a solid core to depend on. This is a shout out to all my peeps! You’re the real MVP’s! 4. I’ve been blessed to still be able to travel. Let me just tell you, if you haven’t taken a cruise yet, DO IT. Everyone has their favorite, but Royal Caribbean is going to be your best experience hands down do not argue with me on this. If you are fortunate enough, you will not regret it. I recommend putting St. Kitts on your bucket list. I have marked off several, but my go-to list continues to grow.
5. This one deserves it’s own separate paragraph. I assume several people have been wondering “What happened?” We looked so good on social media, right? Well, for the last two years I have been in a relationship. It was unexpected and 9/10 wonderful. But we all know shit happens. Per usual, I gave it my all up until the very end. He gave it his all too. But our problems became bigger than the both of us and it was out of control. We caused way too much damage that couldn’t be fixed. You gotta know when to lay your sword down. We all know how I view love, and I do not think it was a mistake nor do you meet anyone by accident. I do have regrets but what’s done is done and there’s nothing I can change now. If I had a time machine I would go back and had waited til my heart was fully ready to give away again. He was a best friend, with so much love, adventure and laughter to give which I fully enjoyed, but in the back of my mind I knew it wasn’t going to end in wedding bells. From my previous engagement, I was scarred. I feared the same mistakes would happen to me. I couldn’t meet him on the bridge. SO here I was with a very hard decision to remove a wonderful guy from mine and my daughters life, or follow my heart and mind and give it to God. We all know now which I chose. I’m moving on and so is he and I hope one day we can be that cheesy quote and pass one another on the street and say hello, hug it out and go about our lives. I wish him nothing but the best, success, and happiness. He truly does deserve it.
6. I learned a lot. About myself. About others. What I want, what I don’t want. What is right, what is wrong. What I will tolerate and what I won’t. I told myself near the end that I wasn’t going to find another. I was fine being alone. I’m a strong independent woman who don’t need no man. Although that is true, fate had different plans. I am here to report that I am happy, and healthy both mentally and physically. I turn 30 on Friday, and there isn’t a more appropriate time to announce that I am READY to start some of the best years of my life! I have a really good feeling about the next chapter in my life. It’s still a crazy beautiful ride and I’m still waiting on that reality TV show. Bring it on world!
Stay tuned for more adventures, chaos, comedy, and positivity 🙂
Ps. I know there is so much more that hasn’t been mentioned, but one thing I have chose to do is keep my life semi private and respect other peoples stories.